Back in September 2012 I took a trip to Amsterdam and Frankfurt. It was my first trip in more than 3 years… as well as the first time I would have sex in over 2 years.

Back in 2009, I arranged a visit with one of my favorite porn stars in NYC. Angel Dark was touring via a British agency and I had to go for it. Unfortunately, it would turn out to be a disappointing session for a variety of reasons (one of which was a poor agency). My past experiences with porn stars had never been as bad. I'm not sure why, but the next two years and four months would have my life devoid of sex. I think part of me was curious to see how long I could pull it off, with another part just not wanting to put in the effort for what might turn out to be another disappointment.

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I visited the Dam last September,

It's been not the greatest last few years for me, not sure about everyone else but this aging thing certainly has proven to me to have its drawbacks. For whatever reasons, I haven't had sex in over two and a half years- the Admiral has been violently upset with me. I find myself thinking of Star Trek and how Spock mates once every seven years. At a certain point he goes into a crazed state of "Pon Farr". I think that's how I've been feeling lately -and hoping in the next four days that Amsterdam will be my planet Vulcan.

Today was gorgeous weather wise, exact opposite of last night. I went about to buy a voltage adapter plug for my laptop, found a great one at a 5 Euro shop near Dam Square. I don't remember being here in the summer, but it's as bustling as I remember. Besides the weed & girls, the energy in Amsterdam is simply electric. One thing I remember right away are the ridiculously beautiful, smiling Dutch women on bicycles roaming about. They're as beautiful as I remembered. Women like this in NY can be full of themselves, wearing a lot of makeup, etc. but in Holland I've seen no such type. No makeup, modestly dressed, bright eyed, smiling & gorgeous riding their bikes on a summer day looking as if they haven't a negative bone in their long legged, trim, sensual bodies.

I arrived yesterday in Amsterdam for the first time in at least 3 years. I tried to scout a bit last night but suddenly found myself in a monsoon rainstorm, after the long flight & too tired to carry on- I went back to the hotel for some sleep.

I do love this town.

had too much stress and anger bouncing around in me and couldn't relax enough to properly interact with the girls. My very first night in Frankfurt, at Fkk world, it came to a boil.

Include how your nervousness and anxiety led to you simply not be a good lay and had a hard time getting it up in Ams (but how that changed instantly in Franfurt).

Things to include:

The guy who went out of his way to buy you a ticket and how you ended up pissing him off.

They guy at the elevator at the Kras

How Rya first spoke in Dutch, then shook her head and repeated it to me in English when asking "Why???"

**How I totally lost my cool. I was looking at women like a starving man at cheeseburgers. Which is exactly what you can't do if you ever hope to turn them on. Everything I've learned about women seemed to go right out the window.

How you let yourself get cocky at different times.

How Nikola wasn't in and you read on Ignatz that Rya might be

How that Asian guy spoke about the hooker like she wasn't right next to him and the girl gave you a look like, "wtf is with this guy?"

How when morning broke you watched the livery car drivers in their suits outside their cars telling each other jokes in animated ways & laughing before starting off the morning.

How the line between confident and cocky continues to prove sharper than ever and seems to be molecule thin

Drug dealer tried to sell you outside of hotel
My sim card got some random texts in Swahili

Nikola not there, no home base. Read on Ignatz she retired, number no good anymore. Sad.

#2 Home base is Rya, but she's also not in the window I remember. Typed in "Rya" on ignatz and no mention of her retirement, but newest post was from 2010… not looking good. I do another walk Thursday night, but I don't see her (feels great to walk though).

When I get back I try entering "Raya" instead to learn she was recently spotted just about a week ago! My understanding is Wed, Thu, Fri early day- I will give it another scout tomorrow day.

Forecast was rain but day couldn't have been more beautiful. (later post: even the next day would be clear despite forecasts).

Figure out a general message theme for the report- a common thread that will encompass it all (mid life crisis?)


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Same kiosk two different hot blond babes, two different people try to cut in line. Super cool woman behind me ended up waiting longer, as she saw the whole thing (and she gave me a wink). She said "she walked in front of you". She saw me looking the woman right in the eye with a smile on my face.

Walking through security after walking through the magnetometer I come to a stocky 60's silver/blond woman who speaks but I don't understand her. The truffles? No, I believe she's speaking Dutch- hmmm… haven't had that presented to me in a while… this is Holland after all. She points to my pocket. I'm thinking "What? if it was dangerous the magnetron would have picked it up". She points to it again, so I pull out my pack of breath mints. She says something else I don't understand, hands me back my mints and I'm on my way.


Walking towards the gate I come acros http://www.massage-o-matic.com

For 2Euros Rivatalize Relax Massage Shiatsu Energize "Reboost in 5 minutes".

I'm like after the uncompleted previous night… I'm ALL over THAT!.

I don't have change, so I go to the nearby kiosk to buy a snack. (someone who's the antithesis of guy who bought by non-needed ticket) tries to cut in front of me in line (later report how it happened again and that woman winked at you) When I pull out my money, I see I have a 20 Euro note…. once again I could have bought the ticket much more easily and not bothered that kind man. He didn't realize I was on shrooms (for the purposes of this, I'm just going to refer to the truffles as shrooms… because it simply sounds better).



So I put my 2 euros in and see a tv menu in front of me, I'm expecting some kind of menu

gotta board now…. or my baggage will be off loaded


write about other people seeing you and tsuddenly the empty ones become full. After your done you walk past to see two people in the machine with their eyes rolling in their heads one of who sees me and gives a smile of thanks for the ad.

it was like the orgasmatron in "sleeper"..

this thing apparently incluedes a version of anal massageyou about the anal massage

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I know how I'm supposed to act, I know how girls want you to act in order to get turned on… but either what they say about riding bicycles doesn't apply to sex or I'm just old and tired.

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So, most likely the first time in my life, I found myself in the bizarre situation of deciding just which hot, young girl to keep eye contact with as they both seem to vie for my attention while blowing me. What to do… what to do...

The pussy in me first tried to look at both of them (back and forth) even though I just wanted to go with Anala. I managed to muster some of the Alpha male rules of "don't be afraid to take what you want" and didn't look at Diana as much to focus on Anala. Those rules are there for a purpose as as soon as I began to ignore Diana, the more she would vie for attention- even though she knew the plan was for me to finish with Anala, pulled my cock out of Anala's mouth and began sucking with full eye contact as well…

Anala had no such limitation on my coming in her mouth or face, she started giving me a full eye contact bj with wide open mouth and tongue. The sight of her face on my cock was pure heaven. Diana, which was great, just not as great as when Anala did it.


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I learned there's no eating allowed in the FKK-World beach area, but fucking a girl in the ass is ok.



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When I was a kid, I was a nerd, not an extreme one, but nerdly nevertheless. Through college and into my 20's I'd only had sex with three girls in my life… that is until I discovered our little world of working women. I think I was about 30 when I took my first trip to Amsterdam. From my first awkward visit to a window girl to bbbjs and threesome's at the Fkk's years later, I believe I learned a bit about women, about sex and about my own strengths and weaknesses.

It was March of 2010 when I confirmed a booking in NYC with one of my favorite porn stars of the time, Angel Dark. I was extremely excited about it, unfortunately the agency that did the booking didn't make things easy. They couldn't make the original evening booking and at the last minute changed it to an early day one. Long story short, she didn't look so good, the agency was not professional and the overall experience was relatively disappointing.

Jump forward to July of 2012- I hadn't had sex since… not sure exactly why. Work, family, obligations, unexpected events all seemed to contribute, but on another level- I think I was curious to see, after living a life of relative debouchery for years, just how long I could go without it. After more than two and a half years of celibacy I went from a neurotic NY Jew to bordering on becoming a full blown basketcase. I told everyone I was taking a week off (I should have made it two weeks).


I learned that most women like men who aren't afraid to take charge. In general they like when you're not afraid of most anything. They will constantly challenge and test you, to see how bold you're willing to be and depending on your reaction, they'll either be turned off or turned on. During those times I managed to walk that line, either through intrinsic self confidence or through outside elixirs, I found I would sometimes get confident to the point of cockyness… a pitfall and big turnoff to women. It's a fine line between confidence and cockyness and over the years it's proven to be a razor thin one for me- I've often stumbled and fallen off. This most recent trip reminded me of that, it's a good lesson to remember.

**Housekeeping called in am even though I specifically asked the night before that they please not do that.

**How that Asian guy kept mentioning to go to Oase but then wouldn't take a cab b/c he wanted an Indian or Pakistani driver.4

**Alana girl and first Romanian girl both had erect nipples which turned me on


**How it was hot at Palace and everyone was a bit listless because of the heat and humidity

**Touch upon how your last mongering trip was to Montreal and didn't work out so well b/c you started doing blow".

**mention how included beer at World is very bitter and how the sausage was way salty and spicy

**I got cocky with the blond Romanian sister with nice tits

**They introduced me to some tall hottie with big naturals, but I just was too tired. When she saw my reaction to her hotness was lackluster she instantly became disinterested. The same with the older sister.

**The black girl who flirted with me and I told her I couldn't only for her to see me with another girl and how when I left she approached me and amazingly said exactly what was on my mind.

**Asian guy who I thought was part of a scam to rip me off I suddenly saw in the red light district. He wanted to go to Oase but I was hesitant. He said he'd get a cab but then kept looking for an Indian one and it never happened.


Having sex after not having it in over two years, in my case, was not like riding a bike. One conclusion I've managed from the experience is that it's not healthy to go without sex for so long. For me it's like being out of work for an extended period of time, it messes with your self confidence, happiness and overall energy. It's sexual anorexia, with all the associated symptoms and irrational anxieties.

**How, after waiting 2 & 1/2 years, when I finally blew, it seemed to go by too fast. Kind of, did that just happen? feeling.


**How going w/o sex the first year was difficult, but once into the second year… I kinda began to lose my bearings. The environment truly is mind blowing… once gets spoiled very easily there.

**How busty blonde hottie Romanian sister girl started wailing a bit when I mounted her mish I stopped because I thought something was wrong, without hesitation she said, no- it's good- don't stop… she was sincere. I suddenly found myself with tremendous satisfaction from that. A smile came on my face and I got the sense she got annoyed with the reaction.

**How for the first time you got a bj in a relatively public area (blond & brunette) - and that it is a turn on.

**Years ago, not sure what it was, but the girls at the clubs looked at me differently. On this trip maybe because I'm older, maybe because my energy was low, maybe because I wasn't carrying (I think mostly) myself as well- the girls didn't seem as into me as I remember years ago.